Hi folks:

You may or may not know that I have ataxia, and I also have a angry ataxia:

This would mean I get mad at, well, myself because…

• I drop one thing three times, or three different items, all within a three minute span, then…
• When bending to pick up the damned thing for the third time, I would bang my head on the counter, or…
• After sitting in any chair for any length of time, I decide I’ve had enough sitting and want to stretch my legs, so I stand up, expecting to walk, yet those mutinous legs say ‘Nay, we do not stand for this movement, sit the hell down!’ and suddenly I’m sitting again!
• I can’t walk a fucking straight line to prove I’m not inebriated…
  – This could be as simple as walking from one room to another without whacking my head on the doorframe to bless my presence.
  – Or I’m walking straightishly, then suddenly I’m foxtrotting somewhere off course, probably because I glanced to the right, or left, and my mutinous legs decide to head that way.
• Who made my legs the boss of me?

All this anger and no where to put it… oh yeah, I’ll bottle it up, smile and carry on… laugh…

Yet, my wife, love that lady, said something: ‘When will you accept these things?’

I used to fall and laugh at myself, can I do that again?

I think I can!

Maybe I should use a journal, trouble with that is I can hardly see my own writing anymore!

Thanks for reading!

Ataxia sucks!