You know something?

Ataxia sucks!

It is a pain in the ass!

Let me tell you about it!

On a recent Wednesday, I had a botox injection appointment, then I went to the gym in the late afternoon.

Going to the gym, lifting a ton of weight and exercising all muscles really makes me feel accomplished and relaxed!

The Wednesday in question, having had a great day, I was energized as I motored home!

But, I had to pee so badly!

I got CJ-3 in the door, drove it inside the house, turned it off, and rushed upstairs!

I managed to get to the bathroom without losing any urine! Hurray!

I dropped my pants and underwear, then… lost my balance, and fell backwards into the tub!

I didn’t lose any urine then either!

The house shook, my kid came to check, but I had already hauled myself out of the tub and onto the proper throne!

I laughed it off, falling to the tub! Nothing broke right!

Then, the next day the wife and I went to visit Mum at the ICU; I had decided to use my Walker instead of CJ-3. I was thinking that it would be nice to walk with my wife…

Yet, in the span of five minutes, I fell spectacularly twice!

First time my foot hit the wheel, and got stuck, I toppled over, uttering profanities, hitting the walker with a fist.

I was mad.

My wife helped me up, offered to get CJ-3.

I sat on a low wall as I waited, musing about Mum.

When the chair arrived, I stood up, quicker than I should have, and immediately toppled over again!

This time I was very mad, and pummelled my knees, swearing at myself.

My wife rushed over, helped me up, calmed me down, got me in the chair.

I calmed down, but I still haven’t apologized to myself.

I hate when I fall!

I think I made it up to myself a few days ago when I finished a massive two hour workout!

Ataxia still sucks!

What do you, fellow ataxians, do when you get mad at yourself?