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My graduation story…

All these graduations, both high school and university, congratulations to you! Well done!

Yet, I am itching to share…

In the days prior to the social media becoming the essential way to broadcast life achievements, bucket list accomplishments, birthdays, I did a thing…

I embarked upon a ten year post secondary education journey.

This pursuit came after a lacklustre tenure in high school. I squeaked by, and I mean that precisely Algebra 12; I received 49.5% on the final test, but the teacher, adjusted that to 51% so I could graduate. With one condition, that I take and pass a night school math class. I did that, without any support, as a hard of hearing student who couldn’t understand what was happening, and a visually impaired student who couldn’t see the board. I like to think the teacher, a kindly, yet easily frightened, octogenarian, evaluated me favourably, adding some numbers to my final mark.

So, I attained my Dogwood, and a graduate in the late 80s. Hurrah, hip hip horray, yada yada…

So, after that debacle, I started college: my first time with ASL interpreters, it was not a walk in the park.

College,

I took a wide variety of courses with no real light going off above my head.

Until I tried a psychology class, that lit a bright bulb! I was struggling those first semesters, it just occurred to me why I struggled: I was learning two things at the same time; I was learning Freudian terms, Vygotsky vocabulary, Jungian jargon and any other psychological related bullshit. Yet, concurrently, I was also learning and mastering ASL.

ASL was not, is not, my first language. I just started to use it full-time with friends about three years prior to starting college.

My first language is English. Through now I can’t speak a word of it without sounding like a gerbil stuck in a puddle of molasses. Damn Ataxia!

Anyways, I continued the college-level courses, taking the prerequisite courses to transfer to university. I left college without a backwards glance. At the time, it the zeitgeist for Deaf students to complete college, but not transfer to university. So, I pursued that transfer, and did not look back!

University was still a struggle!

I did many courses, many psychology classes plus a minor in Learning Disabilities. The work load doubled, yet I managed to get some good marks… that is until I tried dorm life. That led to a crash landing, a dabble with academic probation. Then, I worked my ass off to get back into “good standing,” streamlined my course size (one per semester) and finally, after a long decade, received not one but two A marks! I also GRADUATED!

I did this with not a lot of socialization. With other persons; connecting with classmates, professors, librarians, et al, was beyond my abilities. I was the only DeafBlind, Deaf, disabled, person in any and all of my post-secondary education.

Yes, I had interpreters, but only for academic purposes. This meant I had no interpreters for study groups, cohort discussions before class or in the pub. I usually avoided these.

Palavers with professors usually turned into inconclusive guessing games. Librarian assistance was a little better, they had the respect to write things down!

I didn’t even have access to interpreters during tutoring. This barrier was alleviated by swapping a keyboard back & forth while watching a Windows monitor, fun times.

I was expected to (and I did!) complete all tasks: tests, papers, research, et al, with no prof-approved course modifications. It wasn’t until my penultimate semester when I finally noted my limitations and asked for “lighter” workload: instead of studying a dense tome on evolution & psychology, everyone was also required to read and produce a book report on an arcane evolutionary dime store paperback. I asked the prof if I could read just one chapter and writing a report on just that chapter. The prof, a blind old bat who read with triple power magnifying glasses perched on the end of his strong nose, agreed. I got an A- on that paper!

To make a long story long, I finally found my pace, and graduated!

I was, most likely, the first DeafBlind person to graduate from SFU. Through there was no statics of this feat, I feel it is true.

Now, with social media viewable from every corner of the galaxy, I am content that my graduation success, 23 years ago, has been shared!

Thank you for reading!

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Craig MacLean is DeafBlind with ataxia, a rare condition called CAPOS. He & his wife of 22 years have two sons, the oldest of which has CAPOS as well.

Craig uses American Sign Language to communicate. He is an avid writer, friend, Hot Wheel collector and intervenor advocate.

Craig sits on many committees, boards and associations as a DeafBlind rep. He graduated university with a BA in psychology in 2000.